Mixed blessings

we have looked forward to this day for a very very long month….and today was the day.  We got to see our Little A and LeeLee.  We got to hold, cuddle, play, talk.  AJ shared his 2DS with Little A and they laughed at old photos of David ….esp the ones where he was being silly ….and showing them his ‘big belly’  (the liver cancer made it look like a beachball) and they played games and laughed the way brothers do.

Lots of smiles.  Lots of joy.  They miss each other so much…

And then it was over…and my precious Little A threw himself in my arms and sobbed and sobbed and begged not to go.  It breaks your heart in ways that can never be mended.  And now… the wait until we can hold him once more.

But this afternoon, God hid my tears with His rain…it poured and poured.  As if the whole world was crying with us.  And somehow, it felt better.

So we will go on.  Till we meet again.  Till the waiting is over…and we don’t have to cry any more.

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s