it finally happened… the heat wave broke at last with a DELUGE of Biblical proportion last night followed by more abrupt heavy but short downpours today. The temperatures are down to a very comfortable 98 and the breeze coming in before the storms is wonderful!
I drove around some today…looking at houses. Trying to wrap my mind and emotions around the idea of selling my much loved little house on the island and getting a regular house half an hour or more inland. I don’t want to move off the island. I don’t want to live inland. I like it where I am. I love the ocean breezes and the smell of pluff mud along the inlets or when I’m driving. I love that I can have palm trees and never worry about a cold snap/freeze. Love my lemon tree and my fig tree. My enormous magnolia and all my live oaks.
Sure I can get the oaks and the magnolia further away from the beach. I just don’t want to.
But I need to. At least I have finally made my peace with that half. I need to do this the way the gardens needed that rain. All the watering I was providing just wasn’t enough. They needed it to rain….and soak them down to the deepest levels of their being.
My kids need that now. More than I need my ocean… well, maybe not, LOL. But they are young and this is their time and I need to provide what they need. Like that rain. To fill them to the core of their being and help them grow.
So I looked. Nothing feels right. Nothing feels like ‘home’. I will figure out how to deal with that and pick the place that feels like home to them. And maybe, someday, when they are grown… I will find my home once more. And Red Dog and I will run the beach once more.
But for now…. we have RAIN! Let the dancing commence.